I want to scream. I am so freaking sick of not sleeping. Just once I would like to sleep longer than three hours. So far tonight I have slept for forty five minutes. I really don't know why I bother. I should just stay awake. I have to go back to work in two days. I'll probably end up collapsing. Recently I find myself wanting to physically harm my husband. Like when it's four a.m. and I am awake for the twentieth time, I look at him next to me snoring away while the baby rips my nipples apart, and I want to punch him in the face. I haven't slept more than three hours straight in a month. He gets seven to eight hours every night. Starting sunday that will be changing. I am going to pump like a crazy person so that he will have plenty of bottles. Then finally I can be the one to roll over and go back to sleep.
